I AM BEAUTIFUL

There I said it. Thanks to Christina Aguilera. A few weeks ago, I caught an episode of ER where a little girl was having a scan done on her eyes. As a distraction technique, the doctor (who was having a very bad day) asked her what she liked the do. The girl responded that she liked to sing. The doctor asked if she would sing a song. She did. The words she sang obviously sank deep into the heart of the doctor judging from her expression. These were the words she sang.

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

I had kind of heard this song before but it never caught my attention until I heard the little girl singing it with such conviction and majesty. And from that point, the chorus of that song has run thru my head. I finally decided to download it and it seems to be in my mind even more so. It is incredible to see how thinking words that are so positive and affirming improves our perspective on the things in our lives that we are trying to improve upon.

A friend of mine is having a Mardi Gras Party tomorrow. A feast of delightfully delicious and soul comforting Cajun/Southern morsels will be served. I was thinking about how I might eat during the day so I wouldn't over do it. That thought, in and of itself, is not harmful. However, it did lead to a thought of how imperfect my postpartum body and full face is. Then the lyrics from that song flowed into my mind. I am beautiful no matter what they (or I ) say, words can't bring me down.

I was put back in place. I ,obviously, stand corrected. My mind told me what my very sweet husband has been telling me all along. There is no use or point in trying to get fit or lose weight when my mind isn't willing to value the body I have in its current state. In fact, when I think the best of myself is when I get the best results ever, physically, emotionally and spiritually. With all these thoughts swirling around in my head, I just wanted to put them out in the wide and promising yonder of what is to be. And so here they are. I am Beautiful and I believe it. And when I forget, I will sing them back into my soul.